newest creation. (Photo credit=me, Editing=me)

There's no sense obsessing over the past, I know this. No matter what I do I can't change anything, can't correct anything, fix past mistakes, yet I keep going over things in my head wondering how things would have been different, if ____. The thing of it, though, is that even if I was offered the chance to go back and correct something I wouldn't take it. In my opinion, everything I've chosen to do in my life has inexplicably changed me in some way, and has led to every other event that's happened in my life. The fact is, I'm decently happy with where I am now, and, if the close future (i.e. this fall) turns out how I hope, I'll be happier than I've been in years and years. How could I turn all of that in for a sketchy present and future? How would I know that the changes I made in the past didn't screw this all up? I couldn't bear that, I love you.

I'll still continue to obsess, wonder why I was such an idiot in the past, but I'm trying to let go, to see that it doesn't matter, and maybe someday I'll succeed in realizing that for real...

-M.